burying the sea

i pull you out of my mouth - long, green and transparent
strands of sea weed

covered in fishnets - accumulation
of years' worth of lifetimes we lived

inside of each other - earth and water

a touch that gives the heart shape, the heart
that beats into my palms

and how carelessly i drank

i pull you out of my throat - rush of memories on mute
only the trees can decipher

a tilted sea, always to the right, your hair
waves stuck in my gut, tickling sensation so i never forget

how bodily i knew you, how close and forever you felt
beyond my skin

i pull you out of my stomach - your body weighing water,
your body weighing heartbreak

heavy like mourning -
a forgotten morning

i caress you out of my hair, fingers hollow
with a cold, dead whale

ashes blown in the sea wind -
an invisible story

i untell you from my tongue, excavate you
out of my lungs, the branches, the cells

on the ground of my belly, heaving, heaving
with this blue, blue loss

i breathe you out

a soft word
a hummed sound

from a distance - i can feel you
in my chin, tight with anger

unforgiving